A ball and a hole...

I am really struggling right now. I don't know what I am supposed to be doing. I've finished my degree, but I don't think I should be in the classroom just yet. I have this urge to go back and do further study, but I don't think (and other people don't think) that I should do that right away. I've been thinking a lot about traveling/working it seems to make sense - but there are problems associated.
1) I don't have a visa.
2) I don't have any money.
3) Some people won't let me go.
4) I don't have any money.
I feel so lost here... going OS - would that be simply running away? Why do some people get things so easily? It doesn't seem fair. I've always wanted to teach, everyone says that's what I should be doing, strangers have said to me "are you a teacher by any chance?". How come I did so shit? Why, suddenly, after 18 years of wanting this, 12 years working towards it, 5 years of studying for it, I don't want to be doing it ???
Maybe I'm just scared. Maybe I don't want to face what's really out there... loneliness, sadness and depression.
Right now, curling up in a ball in a hole in the ground sounds like a pretty good option.