Different??? Maybe not...

You know, I thought this time would be different. I thought when I came back here this time that I might actually enjoy myself and have fun seeing friends and family rather then feeling sick and being reminded of things I wish I could forget...but unfortunately Brisbane is still the same. It still reminds me of the same horrible memories that were here before. It still reminds me of the same bad feelings and tears.

I wish I could just fly home right now. Those feelings and memories don't have the same effect on me there. Just here. The minute I landed those feelings came flooding back...and even though I am stronger they still manage to cripple me and render me almost useless. I pray that Brisbane will no longer be like this. And I will continue to pray that cause I love this place and the people who are here. And I hate that it ruins things when I am here.