A big fat disappointment...That's me

Have you ever been told by your parents that they are disappointed with you. Well, I just spent an hour listening to mine say that. Not in those words, but it was one of those talks. We think you should go to schools, put your name down blah blah blah.
Fuck... do they think I like sitting on my ass. I am so bloody confused at the moment. I can't apply for supply work cause I'm waiting on paper work. They know that. The last three days I have been doing things for other people.
I've been trying. But every time I start something or start looking at something I get shot down. "Kirsty I don't think you should do that. You should be using the degree that you just spent 5 years and countless thousands working on". "How can you give up on your dreams so quickly?"
I can't take it anymore. I know they love me, and they are only doing it cause they love me. But right now I want to run. Run as far and as fast as I can away from here. That or something else that I know I don't have the guts to go through with.